Sometimes..

All you can see on my face is a smile, the screams I'm hiding deep down are coming closer and closer. I just want you to be there and hold me and don't say a word. I just need to feel your heartbeat and your breathing. It calmes me down and I can relax again. Everyone around me thinks I'm fine. I know you know I'm not really, but I don't think you really know what to do.. But I'm telling you, just be there for me... I just wish I had the guts to tell you straight up...